Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I did it!!!!
So today I decided to become the warrior. I thought to myself close the end of practice when I often do a headstand. No I am not going to move my mat to where I would normally do head stand. Yes I was afraid, but I thought "fear, so what". What is the worst that could happen. I know that if I start to tip I can just come down, if I start to tip the other way I will roll forward. I checked my neck, checked my shoulders and slowly went up. I did not fall, I was not scared I felt AMAZING!!! I would equate the excitement I felt with that of a child who first realizes that their mom or dad is no longer holding on to the back of their bike and they are riding by themselves with no training wheels. I felt free! Of course then when I realized how excited I was, no unlike that child on the bike, I got a little bit more excited and started to tip over. I did not fall, I slowly lowered my legs. Assumed the position of child's pose and relaxed and was so happy that I did it! I faced fear and said "so what".
I look forward to the upcoming days, weeks and even months when I am faced with fear and can say again "so what, go away, I don't need you right now".